Monday, December 13, 2004

so what?/ a que vim?

I started a blog, but I’m not even writing on it. Partly because of the awareness that it's almost useless - nobody reads it yet. I have no idea whether anybody will ever read it, but just the fact of having it gives me a certain comfort... I don't really belong to this cyber community yet, only unilaterally (I do read other blogs), but MAYBE someday I will belong, I will be read, heard, feel truly connected. I have yet to figure out how to add links to other blogs I read, sites I recommend and the like. I know nothing of HTML and that makes things a little bit harder…

The second reason why I haven’t written any more is that my son (the 6 month old) has been teething (first tooth is out, yeay!), and our sleep has been extremely compromised because of that in the past few weeks. We also traveled on Thanksgiving, had friends over the next weekend, and traveled again last weekend.

The third reason is that I feel a bit intimidated about writing something “public.” Even though English is not my “mother tongue”, as an academic, particularly in literature, I’m supposed to write at least tolerably, and that makes me think twice before posting. I’m not too confident in my abilities as a writer, I wish I could write only half as well as, for example, Catharine Newman (I’m the BIGGEST fan of her online weekly journal, Bringing up Ben and Birdy: http://parentcenter.babycenter.com/general/preschooler/72519.html) Today, however, I decided to just go for it, it may be worth it… and if I don’t even try, nothing will ever come of it.

Let's see...

1 comment:

Tatiana said...

Oi Lilian.
Pois eu li esse post em julho de 2010..rsrsr...e adorei.Te felicito pela coragem e sinceridade na exposiçao das suas inseguranças e por ter tido a força e perserverancia de continuar.
Tambem sou mae de 2 meninos, casada a 17 anos e moro fora do Brasil,tambem,a 17 anos(8 na California e 9 em Cancun).
Estamos voltando para os EU esse ano ,se tudo der certo.
Continuarei lendo o seu blog.Parabens!
Beijos,
Tati.